The
Mark of Cain
Chapter
Four: Pain of the Hidden
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The Mark of Cain
Chapter Four: Pain of the Hidden
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"Hmmm... This one gets points for
innovation at least..."
"What do you mean by that?"
"It appears to be trying to bore
us to death... Quite a refreshing new strategy if I might say so."
From her place on the bridge Misato
Katsuragi turned narrowed eyes towards her erstwhile 'partner'. "That kind
of attitude is going to get us killed Major. We never underestimate
the Angels."
To the purple haired woman's annoyance,
Ryouji Kaji merely grinned at her. "I doubt making an off-hand remark makes
us in any way less prepared for the Angel, Katsuragi."
We're in a crisis situation here
and the fool's making snide comments? "Well it's not helping either
Ryouji!"
The unshaven man gestured towards
the immobile enemy on screen. "You have a better idea perhaps?"
Without bothering to answer, NERV's
operations director turned towards the bridge crew. "Status update?"
"Still no change," Hyuuga replied.
"Target still hovering just outside our defense envelope."
"No movement whatsoever?"
"None that we can detect." This
time it was Shigeru who responded. "It's maintaining constant distance."
Maya piped in at that point. "I'm
still getting some funny readings from its Blue Pattern... Almost like
there's a shadow of some sort... I can't quite figure it out."
From behind her, Ritsuko leaned
over and eyed the readouts. "Hmmm... Strange. I don't think it indicates
an energy build-up though..."
"So it's not getting ready to destroy
us from above?" Misato asked.
The blond doctor shook her head.
"No way to tell as of yet. We don't have any instruments that will tell
us what this Angel is capable of... It seems inert according to all the
readings."
Misato was about to make a comment
when Kaji spoke up. "Maybe it's looking for a nice, comfy place to land
eh, Katsuragi?"
The female Major gave the man a
suspicious look before nodding in turn. "Whatever it is, we have to get
the pilots ready."
Kaji stroked his unshaven chin as
he nodded. Then he turned to the nervous looking man beside him. "Denbe?
Any ideas?"
The creator of the Jet Alone, now
the Keeper Task Force's Chief Engineer, almost flinched at the sound of
his name. Denbe Terajima jerked his wide eyes away from the screen for
the first time since the Angel had appeared. The appearance of the creature
seemed to have magnified the man's already nervous nature. "Uhm, yes well...
The Keeper isn't any more suited to long distance combat than the Evas,
but it was constructed to be able to handle any of their standard weapons,
so if you happened to have a spare..."
Misato nodded and turned to Hyuuga.
"Send up a pair of positron rifles for Unit 02 and the Keeper." While the
Lieutenant was complying the purple haired woman paused, then added as
if as an after thought. "And send up the prototype sniper rifle to Rei."
As the necessary commands were entered
into the computer, the men and women of both NERV and the KTF turned their
gazes back to the creature floating docilely above their home.
Maya was the first to break the
silence. "Well, at least the Evas are already deployed... It's really quite
a stroke of luck..."
"Luck?" Kaji's voice had an odd
catch to it that Misato barely caught. Glancing at him askance she saw
that all traces of humor had gone from his handsome features.
"What's wrong Kaji?"
The former spy shook his head. A
sardonic smile returned to his features, but not before Misato saw him
glance meaningfully upward towards the command tower.
"Let's just say that I don't believe
that luck is a lady tonight..."
----
Twenty feet above them, Dr. Umeko
Takahashi was getting her first look at the enemy.
"So that's an Angel," she said,
her voice betraying none of the anxiety she felt. It was one thing
to view an Angel on videotape, with the sure knowledge that it had in fact
already been defeated. It was quite another seeing it appear, and not knowing
if the bravery of the Children would once more be enough to save the day.
"Yes," Professor Fuyutsuki answered.
"It would seem that your pilots will be tested far sooner than we had hoped."
Ume merely nodded, but inside she
was struggling to control her emotions. She had never been suited for command...
She'd never been able to help but grow close to her subordinates. Cho,
Nyoko and even Kensuke... children who would be forced into harms
way for the sake of the world, children she herself had brought into the
struggle. If anything should happen to them... She ran a hand through her
tightly curled brown hair, a nervous habit she acquired in College and
had never quite been able to shake.
"They are more than ready," she
asserted, with a confidence she hardly felt. "They will prove equal to
the task."
This time it was not Fuyutsuki who
replied. "Indeed. I expect no less."
Seated before her and the Professor,
Gendo Ikari had treated the arrival of the monstrous Angel with about the
same amount of interest that an ordinary man would expend watching paint
dry. Hands clasped before him, eyes unerringly focused on the screen, the
Commander of NERV looked almost as inhuman as the creatures he battled.
"It goes without saying however,
that I find it extremely distasteful that it is the children who are forced
to confront the danger directly, while we sit here and watch," Ume said,
watching as the pilots received their instructions.
"It is useless to rail against reality
Doctor," Ume could almost hear the smirk in the Commander's voice. "One
uses the tools at hand."
"Tools are they ?" the woman was
finding it hard to keep her voice neutral. "A fascinating description of
men and women ready to sacrifice their lives for the sake of the world."
This time she actually heard Ikari's
snort. "You need not be so melodramatic. Do you truly believe that their
youth assures such grand purity in their motives? Regardless, you
have little to worry about... The safest place on Earth in the event of
an Angel attack is inside the entry plug of an Evangelion."
Ume said nothing as she returned
her eyes to the screen. The large monitor showed scenes from outside the
Geofront, the positions of the Evas and the Keeper, the latest readings
on the Angel. One corner of the screen however, showed a scene from within
the geofront. Immersed in liquid in one of the cages NERV used as storage
space for the Evangelions, Unit 01 stood frozen in cryostasis, it's menacing
visage looking for all intents and purposes like a demon from hell...
"Funny," Ume whispered under her
breath as she looked down upon Commander Ikari. "I would have thought that
you a better liar than that..."
----
"An... Angel?"
"Yes Shinji-kun, an Angel has appeared,"
Misato's image repeated the words slowly, as if talking to a child. Shinji
knew that she was growing frustrated over his seeming lack of interest.
"The Commander has given us orders not to release Unit 01 but I want you
to be ready to go just in case he changes his mind ok?"
I don't care, I don't care anymore,
What did he matter anyway? Nothing he ever did turned out right Every
time he took the initiative at something, tried to change things for the
better, things just ended up worse than before.
The twang of broken strings.
The sound of splintering wood.
No! He didn't want to think about
that!
The force of the impact. The
sound of splintering wood.
Why had she done it? How could she
have done it?
His cello...
It was the one thing that he could
actually use to create instead of destroy, the only thing that enabled
him to express his joy and happiness instead of his sorrow...
Not that it mattered... not now.
He doubted if he would have anything to be happy about anytime soon...
But he had been so sure... So sure
she'd like it... So foolishly sure...
"Shinji? Shinji!" The boy could
hear the worry in his guardians voice. How long had he retreated into the
darkness of his mind? With an effort he sought to straighten his posture,
to look Misato in the eyes and give her a brave smile... All he managed
to do was raise his head a little, so that he was actually looking in the
direction of the screen instead of his chest.
"Shinji you have to hold it together!
This is no time for an attack of depression!"
As if one could turn it on and off
at whim. As if he wanted to feel this way.
The wetness of tears streaming
down his face. The sound of splintering wood.
"I'll be ready Misato," he coughed
out. "I'll be ready..."
----
"Oh man oh man ohmanohman -!"
"Ken relax," Cho sighed in
exasperation. "You going into cardiac arrest is about the last thing we
need right now ok?"
"Aw c'mon Cho!" Kensuke replied,
eagerness seeming to drip from his pores. "You can't tell me you're not
excited Our first real battle! Against a real Angel!"
"You don't say?" the young Kaji
replied dryly. "And here I thought it was a large, white, mistletoe." The
scarred boy remained in a crouched position within the bubble of the Keeper's
'Soul' module. Following the lead of its main pilot, the Keeper mecha itself
had assumed a similar position next to a weapons rack. "Just follow the
procedure ok? We've done this a hundred times in the simulator so it should
be a piece of cake."
"Of course! I could do a sensory
sweep in my sleep!" Kensuke turned to his console and was about to begin
typing in commands when his eyes brushed the on-screen image of the Angel
once more. "Will you just look at that thing ? It's freakin' huge! It's
like that episode of Gundam where - "
"Er... Ken-kun?" This time the voice
was female and came from Kensuke's right side. The boy turned to see Nyoko
Aihara smiling warmly at him.
"Yes, Nyoko-chan?"
"Ken-kun," Nyoko began, her voice
double coated in honey. "Correct me if I'm wrong but I seem to recall that
I have a higher rank than you don't I?"
The boy blinked. "Um yeah, that's
right but I don't - "
"Kensuke Aida! Report!"
At the shouted command, Kensuke's
military instincts took over, and he found himself snapping a smart salute
at a suddenly stern looking Nyoko. The handicapped girls eyes narrowed
as she continued.
"You are hereby ordered to
cease all unnecessary chatter and commence an immediate sensory
sweep of the area, followed by all other functions specified in procedure
2.3 of the manual. Is that clear soldier?"
The freckled boy gulped. "Er yes
ma'am, I mean yes, sir I mean- "
"And if I hear one more 'oh
man' or one more anime reference out of you I will personally
make sure that after today the closest you ever come to anything military
will be a ten year old recruitment poster got that!?"
With an 'eep' the bespectacled boy
turned swiftly back to his console and allowed his fingers to fly above
the keyboard. One by one, the Keepers sensors came on line, and a steady
stream of data began to march across the monitors of all three pilots.
A moment later a three dimensional tactical map of the area popped up on
the main screen, superimposed over the external view.
"Sweep completed, commencing uplink
to NERV Command Central." Kensuke announced, in a voice actually approaching
calm.
Cho chuckled. "That's more like
it,"
Kensuke managed to nod sagely before
suddenly breaking out into a wide grin. "This is sooo COOL!"
Nyoko sighed. "You're hopeless...
Internal systems check out. Weapons systems brought to stand-by."
Chojiro Kaji grinned. "Then we're
ready to go." With that he stretched out his right hand, switching his
attention back and forth from the external viewport and a wire frame model
of the mecha at a lower corner. The pilots felt the slight shift as the
Keeper mimicked Cho's movements, and as he closed his hands around an imaginary
object, the mecha in turn seized a positron rifle and withdrew it from
the rack.
As the Keeper stood up, the face
of Major Ryouji Kaji popped open on the screen. "Good work guys, we're
sending you new coordinates now. Move to sector JJ-76 and take a position
that will allow you some cover in the event that this Angel has a long
distance weapon. We'll give you further orders when as soon as we discover
what this thing is made of..."
As he spoke, a red arrow appeared
on the main screens grid map. After taking a cursory look, Chojiro began
to 'walk', slowly maneuvering the mecha onto a larger avenue before breaking
into a swifter trot. Nyoko's eyes were focused on her data readings, while
one hand seemed to be clutching something in the pocket of her flash suit.
The girl performed her duties smoothly, but her face betrayed a growing
nervousness that she struggled to hide from the others...
Kensuke though was oblivious to
anything but his forthcoming 'baptism of fire'. "So what's the strategy
Major?" He asked, eyes shining brightly behind his lenses. "Do we
mow it down with some long distance PP or CE firepower? Get airlifted into
space with a SAL Craft? Perform an IACM with a MPK on a PIAPT? Or maybe
we could -"
"Easy soldier, easy," Kaji replied,
after recovering enough to respond to Kensuke's barrage of acronyms. "The
tentative plan so far is to see if Rei can hit it with the new prototype
energy rifle that NERV R and D developed. You're going to be deployed near
Unit 00 so that you can provide cover if the Angel decides it wants to
get 'intimate'..."
Kensuke nodded enthusiastically.
"Don't worry sir! If it gets within range we'll blast it out of the sky!"
The freckled boy paused a moment as he realized a name was missing from
the battle plan. "But Major... What's Asuka going to be doing?"
At that the older man let out a
sigh and glanced towards something that lay beyond his on-screen image.
As Kensuke listened in the silence he could make out the noise of a heated
argument going on in the background...
"Let's just say," Kaji began, with
a wry smile, "that Unit 02's role is currently being... negotiated."
----
"Damnit Asuka! Stop fooling around
and get to your position!"
"Nein! You can't be serious... Wait
in reserve while Wondergirl takes point?" The red head only barely kept
herself from spitting into the LCL. Did they think so little of her prowess
now? Placing her beneath that damned doll... She wouldn't stand for it!
"Put Mr. Kaji on the channel He knows my true worth!"
Misato's eyes narrowed dangerously.
"Kaji is busy doing his job... which is more than can be said of
you. For the last time move to the assigned position!"
"I'd rather DIE!"
"Will you put aside your ego for
just one moment?!? This operation requires a high degree of accuracy, and
right now Rei has the higher synch ratio..."
"That's a fluke and you know it!"
Asuka screamed in reply. "I'm ten times the pilot that blue haired bitch
is!"
Misato was almost livid with anger.
"If you were, then I wouldn't have any problems getting you to follow the
orders of a superior officer! This isn't a game Asuka there is no
way I'm risking human lives because you felt you had to prove something!
Rei is taking point and that decision is not open for discussion."
Rei... They think even Rei is
better than me... The redhead clenched her eyes shut in frustration.
This couldn't be happening! She was the best! Asuka Langley Sohryu had
always
been the best! But now... She shook her head violently, as if doing so
she could rid herself of such unworthy thoughts. She'd show them...
She'd show them who was a better pilot! She would show them she was better
than Rei, better even than...
The churning heat of her anger.
The sound of splintering wood.
No damnit, she didn't want to think
of that! He had it coming! It wasn't her fault!
His face etched with unbearable
hurt. The sound of splintering wood.
She was still better than him! Even
if it was a mistake it wasn't but even if! it didn't make her
worse than him! It didn't! She was Asuka Langley Sohryu! She wasn't...
She wasn't a...
The heavy feeling of guilt. The
sound of splintering wood.
With an almost feral growl, the
Second Child brought Unit 02 to life. Immediately the red Eva began running
through the streets... Away from her assigned position.
"Asuka?" Misato's shocked voice
was music to Asuka's ears. She thought she could order Asuka Langley Sohryu
around did she? "What in the hell are you doing? Get back into position!"
The red head didn't bother to acknowledge
her superior... At least not with words. Her Eva though began to
run even faster through the empty streets of Tokyo-3, steadily picking
up speed as she neared her destination.
"Damnit, Asuka answer... " the Major
broke off and her eyes grew wide as she seemed to finally realize where
the red Eva was headed. "Oh shit - Rei! Rei get out of the way!"
Asuka turned the corner in time
to see the blue Eva react to Misato's warning. It was moving slowly however,
and Asuka had the advantage of momentum. For a moment the Second Child
was sorely tempted to crash into the cyclopean mechanoid, to beat it to
the ground, to prove once and for all who was better at operating these
big, dumb tools... But she wasn't stupid enough to pick a fight during
an Angel attack. Besides, why bother, when she could show her superiority
by turning her wrath on the angel instead?
"One side Wonderdoll!" The redhead
shouted as she rushed past Unit 00 and brought her Eva to a skidding stop
beside the weapon rack containing the NERV prototype rifle. Though it had
never been announced to the Children, she knew that all the Evas had already
been outfitted with the necessary components to enable them to use such
a rifle effectively. No one could make an adjustment to Unit 02 and expect
her not to notice. Anyway, from what she remembered from the reports on
the Fifth Angel, all it took was to pull the trigger once the computer
gave the signal... If he could do it, then so could she.
With a swift motion, Asuka removed
the rifle from the rack and hefted it in her Eva's hands, before turning
to the aghast image of Misato. "I'm ready for my orders now Major," the
Second Child said in a sweet tone of voice.
The purple haired woman was speechless
for the first few moments, jaw agape and eyes wide at the actions the red
head had undertaken. Finally though, the Major recovered from her shock
and the image on the screen began to tremble in near apoplectic fury.
Misato raised a shaking finger at the monitor...
"You... You... I can't believe you're
doing this! Are you out of your mind?"
Asuka twitched. Against her will,
the girl found her guardian's words echoing in her head, spawning more
accusations with each reverberation. Crazy. Abnormal. Insane. Out of her
mind.
No! She wouldn't think these things!
"How dare you call me that!
You're just saying that because you're on his side!" She spat out
her reply with a vehemence that even surprised herself. "You don't care
whether Shinji follows orders.... You don't punish him when he
breaks the rules! As long as he defeats the Angels you're happy...
Why should I be treated any different?"
"You're twisting the truth Asuka,
and you know it!" Misato exploded. "And this is neither the time nor place
for discussion so just- "
"Let her do as she pleases Major."
"Wha -?" Asuka couldn't see who
the voice came from, but she recognized its emotionless tone and weight
of authority. The Commander had spoken. The Commander had spoken... on
her
behalf. It was all she could do to keep her jaw from dropping in surprise.
Misato seemed to be just as amazed.
The Major had already turned and was looking upward at someone off screen,
presumably towards the Command Tower. "But sir, I- "
"The primary goal of the Evas, Major,"
Ikari continued, "is to defeat the Angels. That is all that matters. If
Pilot Sohryu can destroy the enemy, I care not how many 'rules' she breaks."
"Commander you can't be- "
"I thought you believed in obedience
to one's superior officer Major?"
As Misato stuttered a reluctant
affirmative, Asuka found herself beaming with joy. At last! Someone who
believed in her... Someone who'd at least give her a chance! Someone who
wasn't on his side... It hardly registered on the girl how strange
it was for the Commander to take a hand in affairs, or to display faith
in anyone other than himself. What mattered was that she had been
given an opportunity to show them, once and for all, what Asuka Langley
Sohryu was made of.
You can do it Asuka! You must!
"You won't be sorry sir... This
Angel is as good as dead."
----
In space, two entities hovered just
above the Earth's atmosphere. The larger of the two remained mostly inert,
seemingly content to float placidly within the void. The other however,
currently situated between two of the spiny protrusions along the first's
'back', was beginning to stir. Slowly, the entity which was equal parts
Evangelion Unit 04 and Kaoru Nagisa began to make its way up along the
crystalline body of the Fifteenth Angel, until it achieved a clear view
of the blue sphere shining below them.
A field with a copse of
trees... The sound of dishes rattling in the sink...A lilim dressed in
a blue uniform...
Kaoru/Eva could not make sense of
the images that had been intruding with greater clarity upon its senses.
From its vantage point high above the ground, all that should have been
visible to Kaoru/Eva were the natural features of the Earth itself. At
so great a distance, none of the structures the lilim had erected as testimony
to their arrogance, much less the lilim themselves, should have been accessible
to him, even united as he was with the heightened perception of Unit 04.
And yet... the part of the Entity that was Kaoru realized that it was receiving
sensations that a lilim on the ground would see, or hear, or feel. If it
concentrated, the entity realized that it could even pinpoint exactly where
the impression had been received, that the house he had seen was at that
particular dot, the field was in that specific point. The part of the entity
that could still question wondered at this phenomenon, and decided it bore
further investigation.
The sterile walls of a shelter...
Rubber encasing my feet... Father's hand holding mine...
The entity discovered that every
image was preceded by a pull on its mind, a summoning which plunged it
down for but a moment among the consciousness' of the lilim. Somehow, the
other entity, what Kaoru Nagisa would have named the Fifteenth, was dancing
among the minds of the lilim, running ghostly fingers along the sanctuaries
of their minds. Occasionally, it would draw the consciousness of Kaoru/Eva
along with it, resulting in the flood of alien sensations. Each scan was
more direct, each probe more in depth.... It was looking for something.
Locked the house before... Rachel?
Rachel where are you?...pray I don't fail, Lord please don't make me fail...
The sensations were different now,
no longer merely surface level sense impressions, but the actual thoughts
of the lilim, thoughts occasionally intertwined with intense emotion. Most
of these the entity vaguely recognized as anxiety and fear... Lilim's facing
the prospect of their mortality.
Sheist! I can't shoot it if it
stays there! C'mon already Baka-Angel! Come down here and fight like a
man!
The entity paused. These last impressions
were different... Not only were they charged with an intense anger rather
than fear, but the thoughts themselves seemed... amplified? As if there
was something that was magnifying the emotions of the lilim, or that made
it more susceptible to the touch of the Fifteenth. An image flashed into
the mind of the entity... White flesh encased in red, form of the
Father suffused by the spirit of... a mother? For once both parts of the
entity knew instantly what it was. An Evangelion.
Suddenly Kaoru/Eva felt a surge
of energy from below. The Fifteenth had begun to gather itself, recalling
the energy it had scattered among the countless lilim beneath them. Kaoru/Eva
felt the force within the other build up...
Get down here! I won't let you
beat me!
...Growing greater and greater...
I'm tired of getting beaten!
I won't lose to Rei, to Shinji, to anyone, ever again!
...Until it reached a crescendo
which echoed like music...
Do you hear me !?! Come and fight
Angel !!!
... Like a song which reverberated
across the walls of the universe...
KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS
And then, bringing with it the consciousness
of the Angel/Evangelion, the energy flashed downwards.
----
Kilometers below, the world heard
Asuka scream.
----
"What the - ? The enemy has a particle
beam weapon?" Misato asked, as Unit 02 began to writhe within the beam
of light that had swallowed it whole.
"No," Shigeru replied, "no thermal
emissions detected!"
"Then what is that beam?"
Before anyone could answer that question, Maya broke in.
"Abnormal reading in Asuka's psycho-graph!
Mental contamination immanent!"
"It's attacking across the ego borderline,"
Ritsuko added. "The Angels understand our psychology that well?"
Further observations were cut off
by a shrill scream coming from the Second Child, followed by a sustained
burst of energy as the Sniper rifle fired an effort to reach the Angel,
an effort rendered futile as the blast splashed harmlessly against an AT
Field.
"It's not working! It's too far
out!"
"But we're at maximum power output!"
"Damnit," Kaji reached across Maya
and keyed open the line to the Keeper. "Cho get her out of there!"
Without a word, the six armed Mecha
began a loping run towards the red Evangelion. As it turned a corner and
spied its target it charged ... Only to be hurled away by a hexagonal distortion
that appeared the moment it reached the pillar of light.
"What the fuck -?" came Cho's pained
voice as the mecha tried to pick itself up from where it had rebounded
a kilometer away. "What in the world was that?"
Misato gripped Hyuuga's chair as
she leaned over his console. "That's what I'd like to know Hyuuga!"
"It's some kind of energy oscillation
using invisible wavelength... it's similar to an AT Field."
Kaji looked up at the screen with
his jaw clenched in frustration. "It's trapped her in there..."
----
HALLELUIAH HALLELUIAH HALLELUIAH
----
Within the entryplug, the girl clutched
desperately at her head, trying to shield herself, shield her mind...
STRANGLED
The feeling of suffocation, of ghostly
hands closing on your throat, your weak spot, your vulnerability. Where
every word of praise, every level of expectation fills the air around you
until there's so much pressure that you can't move, you can't think, you
can't even breathe...
(Is this what it means to be a lilim?
This self destructive drive for illusionary status?)
----
"It's not working!" Nyoko shouted
as Cho continued to punch and claw at the field that was keeping the Keeper
away from Asuka. "The field isn't weakening at all!"
"Then help me!"
Nyoko nodded, then turned to a pale
Kensuke. "Ken, take charge of monitoring the field." Without waiting for
a reply the handicapped girl inserted her arms into the two metallic casts
next to her seat. Instantly the mecha's second pair of arms came to life.
Cho backed away and took a deep breath before nodding swiftly.
"Let's do this."
With that the two older pilots began
swinging their arms in a series of powerful blows that impacted harmlessly
against the AT Field.
"More power! Kensuke, give us more
power!"
"Maximizing power output to arm-pairs
1 and 2... Now!"
With a surge of power and the whir
of servomotors, the mecha redoubled its efforts. The two pairs of arms
became nothing but blurs ramming repeatedly against the AT Field with fists
of steel and titanium. Nyoko hoped that if they breached the field, they'd
have enough time to stop before they pummeled Asuka into a pulp.
It proved to be a moot point. "No
go!" Kensuke announced. "The field hasn't even weakened!"
Nyoko ceased her punching, her arms
already beginning to ache with the strain of their sudden and intense exercise.
How
are we supposed to break that thing?
As if in answer to her thoughts
Cho swore, "Damnit all! We can't breach a field this strong. Where in the
hells is Rei?"
----
...FOR THE LORD GOD OMNIPOTENT
REIGNETH...
----
She pulled on the trigger, again
and again, oblivious to the hollow sound which was it's only result. She
had to kill it... Had to kill it...
HATRED
The darkness that swells within
you at the sight of those who dare to be different from you, who dare to
disagree with you... and yet who beat you all the same. The need that drives
you to pull them down beneath you so that no one else would receive praise
other than you... The praise that would grow into the love that you have
longed to have for so very long...
(Hatred can be caused by love? Are
they one and the same? Such intense emotions... How do the Lilim survive
them?)
----
"Not an option."
"What?" Major Katsuragi's voice
sounded unusually loud to Rei's ears. She could see that her superior was
nearing a breaking point more than anxiety over Sohryu, the Major
was not used to the Commander countermanding her orders, something he had
already done twice within the last hour. The woman had been in the process
of ordering Rei to neutralize the AT Field surrounding Unit 02 to enable
a rescue operation, but Commander Ikari had vetoed the idea.
"That field manifests the Angel's
ability to infiltrate the pilots mind. It would be unwise to risk contact
with a second Evangelion."
"But sir- "
"The decision has been made Major,"
At that moment the Commander's image appeared on Rei's monitor. "Rei, you
will retreat to area L-3 and maintain position. Do you understand?"
If Rei had been asked her opinion,
she would have agreed with Major Katsuragi. But her opinion was no longer
required... The Commander had given his orders, and she would not
question them. For Rei Ayanami had one thing that was lacking from the
Major, and most of NERV in fact Faith in Gendo Ikari.
Sohryu's anguished scream echoed
once more through the open channel.
"Do you understand Rei?"
"... Yes, Commander."
With that the albino turned aside
Unit 00 and moved to her new position, as per the Commander's orders. But
she kept the channel to Unit 02 open, and etched every sound into her memory.
Faith has its limits... No one could order her to forget.
----
...THE KINGDOM OF THIS WORLD
IS BECOME THE KINGDOM OF OUR LORD...
----
She crashed into a building, one
hand grasping her head. Her body arched in pain as she shrieked, over and
over, for it to stop, for it to end...
MENSTRUATION
Blood seeping down your legs, uncontrollable,
unpredictable. A constant reminder of what you are and where your limits
lie, of the fact that there will always be things that happen to you that
you did not choose for yourself. Things that can come from within or without,
and can take away your happiness before you even attain it...
(The body limits, the body constrains...
This much I know. And yet why should it cause such pain, such resistance?
Is it not given for the lilim to be limited? Is that not what makes them
lilim?)
----
A frightened boy reached for the
controls of Evangelion Unit 01.
Help her... I've got to help
her...
Shinji had listened as his father
had vetoed every plan Misato proposed to defeat the Angel. He was glad
that he wasn't on the bridge to see his Father sneering as he casually
weighed the pros and cons of saving Asuka's life... He'd shut off the monitor
as soon as the red Eva had begun to writhe beneath the Angel's mental attack,
but that hadn't kept him from hearing the rising panic on the bridge...
nor the tortured voice of Asuka. A voice he had heard so often, raised
in anger at him over some insignificant detail, hissing in scorn over his
failure yet again to live up to her standards. He remembered how
her voice had changed the day she had found out he had surpassed her synch
ratio. That was the great irony of the situation... The worse he
did, the lower he was in the eyes of the Second Child... And the better
he did, the worse he was in the eyes of the Second Child. But for all that
he couldn't stop caring about what she thought... She was his co
pilot, his teammate, his friend...
The twang of broken strings.
The sound of splintering wood.
And yet... What could he do? Every
time he tried to do something, he just ended up making things worse. He
didn't want Asuka to hurt, to suffer. But she... She hurt him so much...
He'd do anything to make it stop. But every time he tried...
The wetness of tears streaming
down his face. The sound of splintering wood.
What could he do? He wanted to make
all the hurting stop... But what could he do? He just made things worse,
always worse... Maybe if he didn't do anything no one would hurt anymore...
If he just did nothing...
The silence that follows the
destruction of hope. The sound of splintering wood.
Nothing...
Slowly Shinji's hands returned to
his lap as he tried to block out the agony of his friend...
----
...AND HE SHALL REIGN FOREVER
AND EVER...
----
Where were they? Where was everybody?
She couldn't take much more of this! Her hands trembled as she raised them
to her head. Why didn't they help her? Kaji... Misato... Shinji...
SHAME
Failure, disappointment, humiliation...
Others have such a hold over you. You are what they say you are, deserve
only what they give you, they who you believe have no right to judge you.
Yet there is one judge you can never escape, the one who is inside you,
who watches the you-that-longs-so-much-for-praise...The judge that is filled
with revulsion with your every move, who is with you when you cry, when
you run, when you shatter music beneath your heel... The judge whom
you can never escape, whom you can never please...
(Such conflict... Such discord...
Are the lilim not united even within themselves? Must they bring about
so much pain upon their very own selves?)
----
"Do it!" Kaji shouted.
At his command four rifles spat
fire into the air as their rounds sped one after the other towards the
light that surrounded Asuka's Evangelion. Again and again they fired, until
enough smoke had emerged to cloud two blocks of city, until hollow clicks
announced empty magazines... And still, as the smoke cleared, the light
remained... Shining down on an increasingly immobile Unit 02.
"Sir!" Kensuke's shout came over
the comm line. "It's not working!"
"Readings suggest no weakening of
the field," Nyoko reported as the Keeper lowered the weapons it held in
four of its arms. "No AT Field disruption detected."
Seated in front of Kaji, Maya nodded.
"Confirmed, no visible weakening observed."
Kaji shook his head. "What is it
going to take to breach that thing?"
Beside him, Misato crossed her arms
and stared angrily at the satellite image of their foe. "And even if we
get Asuka out of there, it's only delaying the inevitable. We still don't
have any way of reaching that Angel!"
In the silence following her statement,
ragged breathing could be heard from Unit 02, punctuated by the sharp gasps
of restrained sobbing. Kaji clenched his fist uselessly at his side as
he listened to Asuka slowly crumble beneath the mental onslaught. She of
all people, deserved no further pain in her life... She's been deprived
of family and of childhood, of any semblance of true affection. And what
does she get for her troubles? She gets to be in the frontline of a battle
with the only enemy who can give her pain that surpasses even that which
she has experienced in the past. When he had learned in Germany of the
horror and sorrow the girl had kept locked away, he had vowed to do everything
in his power to keep her from suffering again...
And now, when he had the power to
stop her suffering, he couldn't bring himself to deviate from the plan.
This wasn't supposed to be happening...
It wasn't supposed to take this long. He had gone over the reports carefully,
he thought he'd known how NERV would act. NERV did have a weapon
capable of destroying a target in orbit... he'd seen the damn thing
with his own eyes. Technically it didn't exist, and thus Kaji couldn't
very well suggest that they use it, but obviously the Commander knew about
it. Even if the man needed clearance from SEELE to even touch the thing,
Kaji had been so sure that despite the consequences, the Commander would
take the opportunity to...
Then suddenly, Asuka screamed.
"No! Don't make me remember that!
I wanted to forgot those things! Don't uncover them I don't want those
terrible memories anymore stop this please stop it now!"
"Doctor!" Maya shouted towards Ritsuko,
"Asuka's psychograph just hit critical!"
"Get her out of there!" Ritsuko
replied. "Her mind is going to be permanently damaged!"
"No go! The entryplug isn't responding
to our commands!"
"Damnit!" Kaji and the others turned
their eyes back to the screen as the sound of Cho's shout echoed through
the bridge. They watched as the Keepers primary limbs came back to life
as its right hand reached over to the left and clutched it tightly. Kaji's
eyes widened as he realized what his younger brother was attempting to
do.
"Cho! Don't!"
"Ryouji, every second we waste-"
"Damnit Cho," the former spy growled
through gritted teeth, "you are not to take any action that I have not
authorized! That's an order!"
There was a slight pause from the
other side as Kaji's brother wrestled with his self control. Around the
elder Kaji the others were too distracted by the situation to pay too much
attention to what exactly the former spy had prevented Cho from doing...
or at least that's what Kaji hoped.
Finally the Keeper released its
left hand and returned to a ready stance. "Any other brilliant orders big
brother?" Cho growled angrily. "Maybe dig a nice big grave? She's dead
if this keeps up and you know it!"
Kaji turned away, his jaws grinding
together in frustration. He couldn't use it now, he shouldn't need to use
it now... The unshaven man craned his neck towards the command tower. What
in the world was Ikari think-
It was at that point that he caught
the look on Ikari's face. The man was looking directly at him, yellow tinted
shades tipped downwards just enough that Kaji could get a clear view of
the man's eyes. Those cold orbs held more than detached calculation this
time... They were sparkling, almost questioning. As their gazes locked,
Ikari raised an eyebrow ever so slightly before he spoke.
"The boy is right Major Kaji. Do
you perhaps have any suggestions? Some... alternative means of destroying
the Angel? We are open to suggestions..."
It was then that Gendo Ikari smiled.
He knows... Damn the bastard!
He knows I've seen the Lance! He wants me to be the scapegoat...
Instantly everything fell into place
why Ikari had countermanded Misato's orders, why he had let Asuka take
the point position, why he had shot down every other suggestion that had
been thrown his way...
He does intend to use
the Lance He just wants me to be the one to take the fall!
"Well, Major?"
The spy was sorely tempted to go
with Cho's solution, or to merely shrug his shoulders and ignore the bait,
anything to throw a wrench into Ikari's well ordered plan. But every second
brought Asuka closer to the edge of sanity, and Ikari had made sure there
was no other way. Silently, he let out a vehement curse against the man
seated so calmly above him, but when their gazes met once more, he had
already made his decision.
"Cho," he began, without taking
his eyes off Ikari, "proceed to sector HJ-03 and board the lift. You're
about to take a little trip..."
----
...KING OF KINGS ...
----
Arms clutched tightly about her
knees, head buried beneath her limp red hair, the quiet broken only by
the occasional choked sob, the girl awaited her death. The pain, the defilement
was no less than before... But the struggle was over. There was nothing
left within her that could put up a fight. The final locks were broken,
the demons of her soul loosed... There was nothing left to do but pray
for it to end, one way or another...
DOUBLE SUICIDE
You were happy once, happy running
across the corridor to the room that you hated. You hated it but things
would be different now, you were a pilot, you were chosen, you were special,
and now Mommy would look at you instead of that stupid doll and you could
be together again and happy and you open the door and what is that hanging
from the...
You were never happy again...
(Such pain... Suffering... Emotions...
Cannot...Remain...)
----
"Recall your men Major!" Fuyutsuki
shouted, "Access to Terminal Dogma is strictly prohibited!"
Gendo Ikari watched as the spy shook
his head. "No help for it Professor we aren't going to make a dent
in that thing without the Lance."
"Wha -? How do you..." With a visible
effort the Sub-Commander brought himself back under control. The old man
turned to the Lieutenants. "No one is to open any of the barriers without
the Commander's orders."
Ume snorted. "Give it a rest Kozou,"
the doctor stated as she laid a hand on his arm. "Nothing else has worked,
what have we got to lose by following Kaji's suggestion? Besides, the actions
of the Keeper mecha are outside your jurisdiction."
Fuyutsuki let out a long breath.
"You don't understand Ume, you can't just use the Lance of Longhinus!"
Ikari decided it was time to speak.
"There is nothing we can do Fuyutsuki."
"Ikari?" His compatriot gave him
a startled glance then leaned in close to the Commander's ear. "Are you
insane?" he hissed, "The old men will not stand for this!"
The Commander merely smiled. "We
cannot turn time backwards," he replied in a low voice, "but we can spur
its course ahead." Then Ikari raised his voice enough so that he would
be heard across the chamber. "The Major has already made his decision.
We would only be working at cross purposes if we hindered them now...
you would proceed with the operation with or without our sanction would
you not Major?"
The spy looked upward and gave the
Commander a smile empty of mirth. "Oh definitely, Commander. I take full
responsibility for this action."
Ikari nodded in reply. It appeared
the spy thought he knew the game he was playing and had decided to go along.
Good. There is no time that one is as vulnerable as when one believes he
has figured everything out...
"Release the barriers," Ikari intoned.
"Open access to terminal dogma."
----
... FOREVER AND EVER HALLELUIAH...
----
The lift clanked into place as the
Keeper re-emerged unto the surface.
"What the hell is this thing?" Kensuke
asked as he scanned the readings he was getting from the 'lance' they held
in their hands. "All I'm getting are 601 errors... And how are we supposed
to get close enough to the Angel to use this?"
"What bothers me," Nyoko replied,
"Was that giant crucified thing we pried the Lance out of.
Was that an Angel? What was an Angel doing in NERV HQ?"
Cho's voice cut across their musings.
"Less talk, more action. Kensuke, get me a visual on that orbital bastard."
"But Cho how are we going to- "
"Now Kensuke!"
Gulping, the teen aged boy complied,
his fingers dancing across the controls until a magnified image appeared
on the screen., just as Major Kaji's face appeared.
"Good," the elder Kaji said. "Now
Cho I want you to-"
"You've given enough orders for
the day big brother," growled the scar faced boy. "I know what I'm doing."
With that Cho pulled back his hand,
ignoring the surprised cries as the Lance assumed a different shape, then
threw it upward with all his strength.
The Lance sped towards space, shedding
clouds in its wake...
----
...AND LORD OF LORDS...
----
Kaoru/Eva reeled as it disengaged
its mind from that of the lilim's. It had been unprepared for the sheer
chaotic intensity that comprised the essence of the female whose mind Cain
had allowed it to enter. The discord had steadily grown until the final
surge of jagged memory had sent the entity reeling away, cutting the connection
that joined it to the life form below. The other entity continued the onslaught,
eager to dissect the being of the child of Lilith, but Kaoru/Eva could
no longer summon enough strength to bear witness...
It was then that Kaoru/Eva began
to feel a disturbance from below it. The disturbance took the form of a
call, a pull, which seemed to come from the Earth beneath it. Steadily,
the pull began to increase in intensity, and Kaoru/Eva found itself responding,
propelling itself through force of will past the glowing body of the Fifteenth,
until it was floating in the void between the other and the Earth. Still,
the pull grew stronger... The entity focused its attention towards the
source and found itself staring at a six-armed mechanoid, carrying with
it what seemed to be a...
Suddenly the mechanoid pulled back
and threw, sending its weapon streaking towards the Fifteenth. Time seemed
to slow even as the entity realized that the weapon was accelerating faster
than should have been possible, as it realized that the weapon would bypass
it on the way to the other. Acting instinctively, with a speed borne from
the fusion of lilim, angel and evangelion, the entity threw its left arm
outwards and up catching the object just as it was passing its position...
Pain engulfed Kaoru/Eva as its body
made contact with the weapon, a pain that cut across body and soul. The
entity felt its form warping where the object had touched it, felt its
substance being sucked into the weapon as if into a black hole. Everything,
body, identity, consciousness was being pulled into the weapon, bypassing
all barriers, all distinction... And then, after an instant that had felt
like an eternity, it was gone, flying past the entity at a slightly altered
angle, passing without hindrance through the AT Field to strike a glancing
blow at the edge of the pristine form of the Fifteenth.
Before Kaoru/Eva could even recover
from the initial contact, agony erupted in its mind once more. This time,
the agony was not its own, but the pain that poured forth from Cain across
the mental bond they shared. The form of the Fifteenth began to twist and
contort, its sleek lines growing gnarled and warped as it sought to keep
from collapsing into itself. Kaoru/Eva found its mind being battered by
the force of Cain's pain and rage, summoning a like response from its own
consciousness, until it was impossible to tell where one's mind ended and
the other's began. The Fifteenth Angel, host of Cain, expanded and contracted,
wound into itself while ejecting globs of matter, before finally assuming
a bulbous form roughly the shape of a grasping fist.
And then, with a mental roar that
threatened to sunder the heavens, the two entities began to descend towards
the Earth...
----
... FOREVER AND EVER HALLELUIAH...
----
"It what?" Commander Ikari
barked, shooting to his feet.
Below him, Shigeru Aoba shrank back
from the Commander's unexpected show of emotion, but managed to stutter
out an answer.
"It... it missed sir... The Angel
is still alive. The weapon seemed to have been deflected somehow. There's
a lot of interference in the area and I can barely make it out but while
it definitely hit the Angel, it was only a glancing blow. The Angel does
seem to have assumed a new form from what I can make out..."
"Was it the AT Field?" Misato asked.
"Can't really tell but I think the
Lance managed to neutralize the field... I'd need to do a thorough analysis
of the data to be sure. The attack did get it to shut off that beam it
was turning on Asuka."
"What's Asuka's condition?"
"I can't get a clear reading," Maya
answered, "but whatever that thing did to her, it was bad. I'm going to
need some time to determine what exactly is wrong with her..."
"Time we do not have!" Ritsuko interjected.
"Readings show the Angel has begun to descend towards Tokyo 3."
"What's its status? Velocity, area
of impact?" Kaji asked from beside the purple haired Major.
It was Maya who answered. "At the
current rate of acceleration, it should impact on downtown Tokyo-3 in twenty
minutes."
Misato rubbed her chin thoughtfully.
"Is it trying to use itself as a bomb, like the Tenth?"
The unshaven man beside her shook
his head ruefully. "We don't know but we don't really have much of a choice
but to treat it as such neh? Although this one seems even more massive
than that one..."
The woman reluctantly nodded. "We'll
want to catch it at a higher level this time, anything to decrease the
force of impact."
Kaji nodded and turned to Ritsuko.
"Is it possible to pinpoint where exactly this lump is going to land?"
The blond doctor typed in a set
of commands then nodded. "Yes, the trajectory seems pretty straightforward
this time... It should land in quadrant LH-97, practically centered upon
the site of the Nippan Exchange Building."
"That buildings a good 100 floors
high right?"
"Yes but what has that to do with-
"
"Can you raise the building to the
surface again?"
"What?!?"
Beside the spy, Misato grinned.
"I get it... We can have the Evas use the building as a platform so they
meet the Angel at a higher level. They'll have an easier time using their
AT Fields to catch it if they cut into the time it has to gain momentum."
Kaji nodded. "But we'll need Unit
01 to do this... The last operation required three Evas. The Keeper can
strike the final blow as long as an Eva catches and opens the field, but
Rei can't do both of those at once."
With that Major Katsuragi turned
to the Command Tower. "Commander Ikari, requesting permission to reactivate
Unit 01."
For an instant the elder Ikari almost
seemed to tremble with suppressed fury, but the moment quickly passed.
Readjusting his glasses, the man took his seat once more. "Permission granted.
Proceed."
Misato whirled back towards the
others. "Eva Unit 01, launch!"
----
"Now Shinji, remember how you stopped
the Tenth Angel?" Misato said as Unit01 emerged upon the surface. "This
is more or less the same thing, except that you'll be raised atop a tower
to meet it at a higher point so that- "
The boy didn't even look at the
screen. "It doesn't matter Misato."
"Huh?"
"I can't do this."
Misato blinked. "What what
are you talking about Shinji? We've got ten minutes left before that thing
makes a pancake out of our city! You can do this Shinji!"
If anything, the boy's voice grew
even softer. "I can't..."
"Shinji snap out of it! You can!
You have to!"
"I can't!" the Third Child shouted
at last. "Can't you understand? I'll just make things worse!"
"Shinji," Misato whispered, a pained
expression on her face. "Shinji don't do this now we need you- "
"What's going on Shinji?" a voice
interrupted. Kensuke's. The boy looked up to see the forms of Unit 00 and
the Keeper closing in on his position.
"Jeez Shinji...I know there were
times when you didn't follow orders, and everything still worked out,"
Shinji's friend continued, "but I don't think this is one of those times.
We can't beat this thing without you Ikari!"
"Kensuke... I..." Shinji began in
a broken voice, but then fell silent as he turned away from the monitor.
No matter what they said, he just couldn't bring himself to believe that
he could do anything. If he believed then he'd hope and if he hoped...
The image of Asuka forced its way into his mind and the Third Child choked
back a sob.
"Ikari-kun."
Blinking back tears, Shinji looked
up to see the face of Rei Ayanami gazing down at him. For a moment they
just stared at each other, and then Ayanami gave the slightest shake of
her head.
"I do not understand."
Shinji looked away. "Nobody does..."
The girl continued as if she hadn't
heard his words. "You wish to help Sohryu. You have been ordered to help
Sohryu. I am unable to observe a conflict."
The boy shut his eyes tightly. "It...
It's not that simple Ayanami... You don't understand..."
"That is what I said."
"We don't have time for this." This
time, it was Kaji's face that appeared on the screen, tired eyes boring
straight into Shinji's. "Listen to me Shinji, for all the talent and determination
in this building, in this country, in this entire world, there are only
six people who have a say today in whether the world lives or dies. Like
it or not Shinji, you are one of them... You can do something. And
what you choose to do or not to do will affect us all."
Each word seemed to increase the
pressure on the boy, and he slumped wearily into his seat. "I don't want
to choose for everybody," he whispered, "I don't know what to do Mr. Kaji..."
"You will eventually Shinji," the
man replied gently, "the moment you stop thinking and start acting."
"Twelve minutes to projected impact
Major," came Maya's voice from the background.
Kaji nodded. "No more words everyone,
you know what to do."
"After what this thing did to Asuka,
I don't think you need any further incentive," Misato added. "Give it your
best shot you guys! Send this Angel down to Hell!"
With that Unit 00 and the Keeper
began to run towards the building, Unit 01 following reluctantly behind
them...
----
"Six minutes to projected impact
with tower Major Katsuragi," Hyuuga announced. "The Evas have reached their
positions."
The purple haired woman nodded.
"Ok, do it. Raise the building."
At her command the Nippan Exchange
building began to rise slowly from the shelter of the Geofront, emerging
from the surface and ascending to meet the enemy, humanities defenders
resting on its rooftop. Misato glanced once more at Shinji's face on the
monitor. The boy looked tormented, torn between his desires and the responsibility
thrust upon his shoulders. Something had happened this morning, most probably
involving Asuka, and it had crippled the Third Child. The Major cursed
Asuka's timing... Then felt a feeling of shame wash over her as she realized
that Asuka was more than paying the price. She resisted the urge to check
up on the Second Child... Time enough for that after they had taken out
her assailant.
On screen the Nippan Exchange ground
to a stop as it reached its full height of 132 stories, just as the incoming
Angel became visible to the naked eye, steadily growing larger as it approached
the Keeper and the Evas.
"Building has been raised," Hyuuga
said. "Impact in 3 minutes."
Misato looked at Kaji, who nodded
and gave her a smile. "We've come out of worse situations Katsuragi."
The woman smiled in return but didn't
answer. Instead she faced the monitors once more. "Prepare to extend AT
Fields!"
"Wait a second," Maya began. "That
strangeness in the blue pattern has returned, it's almost as if there's
something else..."
Suddenly a blur of movement emerged
from the Angel, a white object that hurtled unerringly towards the Evas.
"What the- "
"Oh my God!" Maya shouted as she
whirled on Misato, "MAGI confirms two Blue Patterns! It's another Angel!"
"That's impossible!" the Commander
snapped, his eyes boring down at the startled female Lieutenant. "Re-check
those readings!"
The woman merely shook her head.
"It's plain as day sir... two distinct Blue Patterns, not even duplicates
like the Seventh!"
Misato turned to the monitor just
in time to see the second Angel about to crash into the oblivious and unmoving
form of Unit 01.
"Shinji! Get back!"
Before the boy could respond to
her scream the shock of two large objects coming together rocked the screen.
When the dust settled however, Misato was surprised to find Unit 01 standing
there unscathed. The second Angel was no where to be found... And neither
was...
"Kensuke!" Shinji screamed. Unit
01 was leaning over the edge of the building and looking down. "Nyoko!
Cho!"
Misato felt herself breathe in sharply
as she saw the two intertwined forms of the Keeper and the Angel falling
swiftly towards the ground. She turned to look at Kaji but he was already
issuing orders.
"Nyoko can you hear me? Hit the
boosters when I give you the signal!"
"We can't," came the girls ragged
response. "It's clinging- "
"Major!" Shigeru called out to Misato.
"Impact is immanent!"
On the screen, the bloated form
of the first Angel was less that a kilometer from the rooftop, and closing
fast.
"Shinji, Rei, deploy AT Fields now!"
A shimmering red distortion erupted
from Unit 00 as it raised its hands to meet the threat. Unit 01 however,
remained at the edge of the rooftop.
"Shinji!"
----
"Cho!" Nyoko screamed. "Break free!"
"I'm trying!" The other replied
as he moved his arms against the suddenly tight restraints. After they
had tackled the Angel, it seemed to have wound itself around them somehow,
curtailing all movement, or deployment of the boosters. Cho couldn't even
get a mental image of how they were entwined... All he could see from the
monitor was a fleshy whiteness and a flash of red...
Red! The core!
With strength born of desperation
Cho reared back his head, and brought it crashing down against the edge
of the Angel's core. Instantly the things grip loosened enough for the
Keeper's arms to gain leverage.
"Push!" He shouted to Nyoko as they
used four of the Keepers arms to push mightily against the expanse of white
matter disengaging the mecha finally from its prison.
"We're clear!" Kensuke crowed from
his position. "Do it now Nyoko!"
"362-Boosters engage!" Nyoko cried,
issuing a voice command as the mecha plummeted past the tenth floor of
the building. Instantly twin gouts of fire shot forth from the Keepers
back and the pilots found themselves battling g-forces as the robot suddenly
reversed its downward descent. In so doing however, the mecha crashed into
the building, sending shock waves through the tower, before Nyoko could
regain enough control to bring the Keeper down to a rough but upright landing.
The three pilots exchanged deep
breaths as the mecha picked itself up more than a hundred floors below
where it had begun.
"That was close," Kensuke breathed.
"Too close," agreed Nyoko in a shaky
voice, a trembling hand reaching into her suits pocket and coming out with
a death grip on a Catholic rosary. "I thought this first Angel might be
our last."
"All right." Cho said as he brought
the Keeper into a battle stance. "Where's the bastard? I hadn't been planning
on taking the express elevator..."
The face of Cho's older brother
appeared on the monitor. "Forget about that one first, Rei's in trouble
back on top. She can't keep the bigger Angel back for long."
"But what about Shinji?"
"Just get back up there." Kaji replied.
The three pilots exchanged a long
look. "Fine," Cho agreed, "Point us to the nearest weapons depot... We
need to replace the ones we..."
"Cho!" Kensuke interrupted. "Something's
coming our way and fast!"
"It's the Angel!" Kaji shouted.
"Get back!"
Without waiting for further instruction
Cho bunched his legs beneath him and leapt to his right, just as a blur
of white smashed into the building directly behind where they had stood.
"We're sending up a set of weapons
at a depot to your right side. Arm yourselves." Kaji ordered, just as the
sound of a metallic panel sliding into place heralded the arrival of their
weapons. "Nyoko, reroute control of the secondary arms to Kensuke while
you prepare the shield for use. Looks like we'll have to deal with this
one before we can kill it's 'mother'."
"Acknowledged sir," Nyoko replied
as she began typing at her console. Cho grunted as he and Kensuke armed
themselves with a variety of long distance weapons: a rocket launcher and
three pallet blasters.
"Woo-hoo!" Kensuke whooped. "That
Angel's in for it now... we're packing four times the fire power
an ordinary Eva uses."
A commotion from the debris of the
buildings first floor returned their attention to the task at hand. Arising
from the wreckage was a shambling, humanoid form. The Angel was covered
with a pasty white 'skin' that looked more like muscle tissue, combined
with what looked like assorted metal parts, except for the central crimson
core. Its face was a hideous mask of glee, rows of huge teeth over a protruding
jaw, malformed horn jutting out from its cranium as it gazed at the Keeper
with glowing red eyes.
"Man, he's an ugly looking one isn't
he?" Cho whistled.
"Yeah," Kensuke agreed. "But there's
something familiar about-"
"Time for this later children,"
Kaji interrupted. "Remember we can't spend too much time on this one."
"He's as good as toast Major," Kensuke
grinned. "Give the order Cho!"
Cho nodded. "Fry him!"
With that, four fingers depressed
their respective triggers and a barrage of firepower flew towards the white
Angel, riddling its body and sending it flying further back into the building.
"That was easy," Kensuke said as
they waited for the smoke to clear. "Guess these things are over rated..."
"Guess again," Nyoko replied as
she pointed towards the screen. As the smoke had drifted away, the Angel
had returned to view. The three pilots watched in sick fascination as one
by one it repaired the damage to its body, white matter filling its wounds,
regrowing severed limbs.
"O-kay that's it," Cho said as he
dropped his guns and drew two prog knives from the rack. "We do this the
old fashioned way." With that the Keeper broke into a run towards its foe.
The Angel reacted slowly, sending a heavy handed backhand that Cho easily
ducked. "Perfect," the boy grinned as he took advantage of the opening
to thrust both his knives straight into the Angels core... only to
have them deflected at the last moment by a familiar red distortion.
"An AT Field?" Nyoko asked. "But
why is it only over the core?"
Before anyone could answer however,
all three were thrown back as the Angel landed a punch against the Keeper's
torso. Cho reeled back as the Angel's other fist sped towards him bit Nyoko
blocked it with a focused projection of the Keepers force field. Nyoko
stopped the next few blows but more and more began to sneak past her defenses,
one kick causing a great deal of damage to the mecha's right hip.
"Put some distance between us Cho!"
Nyoko ordered through gritted teeth, "The force shield isn't designed to
deflect melee attacks..."
In response the Keeper leapt back
a good distance, placing the better part of a block between it and the
Angel.
"Ok, brother," Cho began. "How do
we kill this thing? I mean we can't get to the core because -"
"Cho look out!"
"Wha- ?" was all that the scarred
boy could get out before the cockpit was rocked violently backwards. On
the consoles of his two fellow pilots, alarms were going haywire. As for
Cho, he felt the restraints connecting him to the Keeper tighten significantly,
jerking his head backwards. He struggled to keep upright as a force seemed
to push him back. All Cho could see within the screen of his wrap around
headset was the late afternoon sky.
"What's gong on? I can't move my
head enough to see anything!"
"Kensuke," he heard Nyoko say, "reroute
to Cho the visual feed from NERV."
A second later Cho was looking at
the Keeper from the vantage point of a NERV camera. What he saw was the
mecha arched painfully backward, with the Angels two hands wrapped around
the Keeper's neck... hands attached to arms which had stretched to cover
an entire city block in less than two seconds.
"We're in trouble..."
----
"Shinji!"
The boy was huddled in his seat,
hands covering his ears as the sound of an AT Field colliding with an immense
object resounded across the sky.
"Shinji you have to get up!"
Slowly the boy brought his face
up to look at the monitor, only to find the Angel practically right on
top of him. It was a hideous blob of white matter, nothing at all like
the Angel he had seen on the monitors a half hour ago. The Angel that had
hurt Asuka...
All that stood between the Angel
and Shinji was the light blue form of Unit 00. Rei had lifted her arms
toward the sky and, together with her outstretched AT Field, was pushing
desperately against the massive form of the Angel. Steadily however, she
was losing ground, her Eva's feet digging deeper and deeper into the floor,
forming twin furrows in the material of the rooftop.
Ayanami...
"Shinji, Rei can't keep this up
for much longer! You've got to help her!"
"I... I..."
The twang of broken strings.
The sound of splintering wood.
The Third Child's arms fell to his
side, his hands opening and closing impotently.
"I can't..." he whispered, "Misato...
I can't..."
"Shinji! What's wrong with you?
Rei needs you!"
"I can't!" he boy shouted. "I can't
do anything! Stop depending on me!"
"Shinji!"
A ragged voice answered before he
could respond. "I... Can handle this, Major."
Shinji looked up once more to the
screen. Unit00 had redoubled its efforts, straining with every ounce of
power in its frame, it's cyclopean eye seeming to shine with a hungry light.
At first, it seemed like the Evangelion was making headway, the Angel being
forced backwards, slowly but steadily. It was then that Rei turned her
hands inward, and began to claw away at the center of the AT Field, to
allow it to reach the Angel's core.
"Rei you can't do that!" Misato
called out in a panicked voice. "You can't project a field and neutralize
a part of it at the same time!"
"There... is... no... other... option..."
"Rei it's not going to work!"
Instead of addressing the major,
Rei's face appeared on Shinji's screen. "Ikari-kun," the albino said, calmly,
despite the beads of sweat upon her brow. "You will not die. I will protect
you."
With that Unit 00 pulled the center
of the distortion open...
And the entire AT Field disappeared.
Shinji felt the rooftop collapse beneath him as the Angel completed its
descent...
----
In the Keeper's cockpit alarms were
blaring out their warnings. Nyoko quickly scanned the instruments on her
console... Things did not look good.
"It... It's ripping the neck
myomers apart!" Kensuke reported. "Get it off us!"
"It's no use," Cho growled, as he
struggled to release the Angel's hold on the Keepers throat. "It's too
strong for just me!"
"I'm on it!" Nyoko called out, pushing
her arms into the control casts for the secondary limbs. Concentrating
on the screen, the girl brought the Keepers second arms up and clutched
at the Angels extended limbs, joining Cho in trying to break the Angel's
iron grip. The girl strained against the simulated resistance with all
her strength and the tide of the battle began to turn. Slowly, the Angel's
hold began to loosen and the four arms began to push it away...
Then the Angel shifted tactics.
Instead of holding the mecha's neck it latched on to the Keeper's arms
instead. Suddenly the Keeper jerked forward as the Angel's arms began to
retract toward its body, pulling the Keeper along with them.
"Watch out!" Nyoko shouted, "We're
going to- "
The rest of her words were drowned
out as the Keeper was brought crashing against the white Angel, sending
both figures tumbling to the ground. The pair of giant shapes rolled along
the ground, locked in a struggle for leverage, before finally the Angel
emerged on top, pinning the mecha to the ground with its knees while battering
at its fallen foe.
"Cho!" Kensuke called out. "Do something!"
Cho let out a rebel yell as he brought
the Keeper's arms upward once more, catching a white fist in each of its
own. Several damage indicators flashed into the red as Cho pushed the Keeper's
systems to the limit.
Then the Angel turned its head directly
toward the Keeper's cockpit, its demonic face seemingly leering at the
three pilots as it let out an unholy roar. Nyoko remembered just in time
that she couldn't cover her ears while her arms were in the control casts,
and she felt the insides of her head being knocked around by the force
of the cry, all thoughts extinguished save for one...
It hates us... Whatever it is,
it hates us...
"Ken, shoot it!" Cho shouted over
the din, "Use the weapons in the tertiary arms!"
As seconds passed without a reply
Nyoko turned in her seat towards their youngest co-pilot. The bespectacled
boy was staring up at the Angel's monstrous face with a look of absolute
horror, his body rigid with fear.
"Ken!" she called out, "Ken snap
out of it!"
"What's wrong with Ken?" Cho asked
urgently.
"He's- " Nyoko began to answer,
before she caught a flash of light from the screen. The handicapped girl
looked up. The Angel's eyes had begun to fill with a malevolent energy...
It had a beam weapon! Nyoko said a silent prayer as she activated the control
casts once more.
"Oh, no you don't!" the girl cried
out as she locked her two hands together and brought them both arcing upward
towards the Angel's face. The blow knocked the creature's head away, just
in time to send the Angel's energy blast away from the mecha and into one
of the Eva's 'refueling' stations, causing it to explode with tremendous
force that once more sent both combatants flying. As Nyoko felt the Keeper
climb unsteadily back onto its feet she could already see the silhouette
of the Angel, looking even more demonic with the flames from the explosion
as its back drop, as it once more approached the Keeper, seemingly unscathed.
What's it going to take to kill
that thing? she managed to think before the sound of the Nippan Exchange
building being ground to dust diverted her attention...
----
"No..." Misato whispered as the
Angel impacted with the tower, hardly slowed by the structure as it sped
towards the ground. Rei's gambit had failed. She hadn't been able to neutralize
only a part of the AT Field but instead had ceased projecting it entirely,
eliminating the one thing that had kept the Angel at bay. Now without the
AT Field acting as an obstacle, the Angel continued its delayed descent
towards the Earth, destroying the tower on its way down. If this Angel
was anything like the Tenth, the ensuing explosion would wipe both Tokyo
3 and the geofront from existence.
Misato scanned the stricken eyes
of her companions, and knew they felt the same feeling of defiant resignation
that she herself did. They had done their best... that was all God
or man could ask of them. She felt her hand reaching for Kaji's, regretting
that so much need be left unsaid...
The Angel streaked past the tenth
floor of the building, seconds from impacting upon the Earth's crust
- and was stopped dead by an AT
Field.
"Wha -?" The purple haired woman
blurted out. "Where'd that come from?"
"It's Unit 01!" Maya replied.
Suddenly an image of Shinji crackled
to life on the main screen. The Third Child was sweating profusely, teeth
gritted in determination.
"Don't... think..." they heard him
mutter through gritted teeth, as if reciting a mantra. "Don't think...
just... act...
"Shinji!"
"Misato!" he called out. "Rei can
cut an opening in the field as long as I project it, but she can't hold
it open and attack at the same time. We need someone else!"
Misato turned to Kaji, but the man
had already opened the channel to the Keeper. The image of an equally grim
Nyoko popped up on the screen next to Shinji's.
"We can't! The other Angel has us
pinned down over here! It's all we can do to keep it away from Shinji and
Rei!"
Misato cursed as part of the screen
changed to display the Keeper locked in a struggle with the humanoid Angel.
That left them with only one option. With a swift movement she keyed open
the line to Unit 02.
"Asuka!"
----
Somewhere in the shadows of her
mind, the girl heard someone call her name. She didn't respond. She couldn't
even if she wanted to. The present had been devoured by the past. Her attention
was elsewhere, her mind fixed upon long hidden memories that played again
and again upon the screen of her consciousness. The demons of her soul
were non-too easily pushed aside once freed from their captivity. She wondered
if she'd ever bury them again...
"Asuka!"
Darling Asuka... Eat up
you don't want to look like that girl in the window do you?
Mama! I'm Asuka! Not that doll!
Me! Me!
"You have to get up!"
I have to be the best so Mama
will look at me again!
I did it! I'm a pilot! Mama,
oh mama...
... Ma ma?... What are
you doing ... up... there...
"If you don't we're all going to
die!"
Come die with me Asuka...
Die... Die...
"I want... to die..." the girl whispered,
and clutched her knees closer to her chest, waiting for the demons to lead
her to her Mother.
"It's no use! She's lost it," she
hears the woman's voice saying. She seems so far away... "Try to get Rei
to back up the Keeper instead..."
"Asuka!"
That voice. It was no longer the
woman's... It belonged to another, one just as familiar...
"Asuka! Answer me!"
An image formed in her head. A boy,
her own age. Weak eyes. Gentle eyes. A rare smile that so often turned
into a frown...
Him.
"Asuka!"
Shinji.
The twang of broken strings.
The sound of splintering wood.
The girl whimpered. Not all of the
things she wished to forget had happened in the distant past...
Shinji...
"Asuka, I can't hold out much longer..."
The voice broke up in a cloud of
static, then returned, the boy seemingly in a great deal of pain.
"Asuka! Please! We need you!"
Need... her?
But she was useless...
"I need you! Hurry up!"
Shinji... needed her?
Invincible Shinji... needed her?
Couldn't do something... which she
could do?
"Come on! You can't let it get away
from you after what it did to you!"
Who did what?
Had something happened to her?
My mind...
Shinji's voice again. "It's right
here Asuka! The Angel... We can get it!"
Angel? The Angel...
... being eaten away...
Slowly her head came up. "It's...
here?"
"Asuka! You're back!" she heard
the boy say, but she remained oblivious to the emotions in his voice. She
was remembering something... and all else was being pushed aside by the
emotions that were rising to accompany it.
"The Angel... It's here?" she said,
her voice nothing but a harsh whisper.
"Yes, yes it's here. Ayanami and
I have it pinned down but we can't kill it without you..."
Kill... the Angel... The hate began
to bubble to the surface, raising bile in her throat...
"It's here..."
"Asuka?"
Kill... the Angel... She raised
her eyes to the screen. Slowly, Unit 02 began to rise, its four eyes scanning
the horizon... It didn't have to search for long.
It's defiling my mind!
Kill the Angel! There it was, held
up by the AT Field... And there, oh so close, was it's red, beating, heart...
Make it stop!
KILL!
Asuka screamed her rage and raced
towards her hated foe, Unit 02's eyes radiating her hatred.
----
"Unit 02 has gone berserk!" Hyuuga
shouted as the red Evangelion sped towards the Angel at an astronomical
rate. "Readings are going off the scale!"
"Rei!" Misato called out. "Do it
now!"
On screen, the bridge crew watched
as Unit 00 deftly pulled open a gash in the AT Field as Unit 01 concentrated
on keeping it up. The section had barely been opened before Asuka reached
the Angel and plunged her knife into its core with all the strength the
Eva possessed. It cracked in a matter of seconds...
For an instant, Misato felt a heavy
presence, alien and yet very familiar, wash over her as beams of light
began to spew out of the jagged wounds in the Angel's core...
----
~RETURN~
The command came to Kaoru/Eva almost
as soon as the rage had vanished... The rage that had swallowed it's capacity
for thought and free choice, that had engaged it in battle with the six
armed shell of an Evangelion... a mechanoid. The rage was gone now,
completely absent, replaced with the Presence that it had grown to recognize
as Cain.
~RETURN~ the voice repeated,
but it's strength seemed to be fading along with Cain's presence. ~RETURN
TO THE VOID~
Master, Kaoru/Eva replied,
I
do not know how...
There was a silence, and then Kaoru/Eva
felt the touch of Cain along its mind, felt his Presence suffice itself
like water enfolding a pebble. Kaoru/Eva felt itself move, felt itself
rise into the air, yet it knew this was the work of the Other. Portals
in its mind were opened, and Kaoru/Eva felt the power leak out of itself,
and saw the gateway to the void form beneath its feet.
~YOU DO NOW~
And with that the entity disappeared
into the Dirac Sea.
----
"Gods," Misato whispered to her
companion. "They look terrible..."
Save for one, they were all gathered
together around the powered down form of Unit 02 when Misato and Kaji stepped
down from the transport. Two Eva Pilots and Three Keeper Pilots, all worn
down by the day's ordeals, going over them in their own private thoughts.
Misato looked around and read the weariness in their movements, weariness
and something more, something specific to each one. Kensuke was lying on
a stretcher with a hand covering his face, occasionally hyperventilating
before Nyoko could calm him down. The handicapped girl herself had an expression
that alternated between concern and relief, her head bowed seemingly in
prayer when she was not attending to Kensuke. Rei was standing to one side,
which was not in itself unusual, but she had her head cocked at a strange
angle, almost as if she was listening for something.
The two remaining boys, Cho and
Shinji. were closer to Unit 02. The older boy had his hand on the Third
Child's shoulder and seemed to be telling him something. Cho finished talking
and pushed Shinji gently forward with his hand.
"Go on," she heard the scarred boy
say as she and Kaji came closer. "What's the worst she could do?"
Misato heard Shinji mumble something
indecipherable before he hesitantly ducked beneath the quarantine tape
and move closer to the red Evangelion. The Major realized she should technically
stop such action but she merely watched as he headed for the red
haired girl. Meanwhile she heard Kaji call out a greeting to his brother.
"Cho, are you- " was all that she
heard him get out before the sound of a fist hitting flesh snapped her
attention back to the brothers.
The elder Kaji was lying on the
debris strewn floor, one hand rubbing his unshaven chin where Cho's punch
had connected. The scarred boy was standing over his brother, clenched
fists trembling at his side, looking for all the world like he was about
to pounce on the older man. Swiftly Misato imposed herself between the
two, pushing the younger Kaji away.
"What the hell has gotten into you?"
she fumed at him. "Haven't enough people been hurt today?"
"Butt out Misato," Cho growled.
"There would have been a lot less of that if not for Ryouji."
The woman refused to give ground.
"He did the best he could Cho! What are you blaming him for?"
The boy seemed about to say something,
then changed his mind in mid sentence. "You... You don't know what you're
talking about Major," he responded angrily. "You don't know what's really
going on here, so how would you know who was doing his job?"
Before she could reply to that Kaji
lay a hand on her shoulder. He had picked himself up during the argument
and now stood behind her, with a totally inappropriate smile on his face.
"Don't worry about it Katsuragi," the spy said. "We're all a bit hot tempered
when we're young and ignorant."
Cho's reply was immediate. "Don't
patronize me damnit!" he shouted, pointing angrily at his brother. "You
know very well what you did today!"
At that the elder Kaji fell silent,
and he turned his face towards the figures of Shinji and Asuka.
"More than you know," Kaji replied
sadly, "More than you will ever know..."
----
He approached gingerly, careful
not to disturb her. He didn't know why he was keeping so quiet...
He'd disturb her anyway the moment he spoke. Maybe he just wanted to postpone
it for as long as possible. The scars from the morning still hurt, and
they would be a long time healing.
The twang of broken strings.
The sound of splintering wood.
Be that as it may, Cho had been
right. Things like this had a way of putting a proper perspective on events.
'Whatever she did,' the scarred boy had began. 'She's gone through something
worse just now. And she needs someone to remind her she has friends. Whether
or not she chooses to make use of them is up to her however.' When Shinji
had said he couldn't do anything about it the older boy had merely grinned
and pushed him forward.
"You're right." He had said. "Assuming
all you do is stand over here."
So here he was, standing right behind
her but still silent, at a loss of what to say or do. It doesn't sound
as if she is crying or anything, the Third Child thought to himself.
She probably doesn't need me... As he was about to turn away however,
the girl's shoulders jerked violently upwards. The movement stopped, but
came again as Shinji watched, after a few seconds. Was the Second Child...
crying?
"Asuka..." the boy whispered and
took a tentative step closer. "Are you ok?"
Her shoulders stopped moving, and
for a moment her entire body tensed up. Shinji retreated backwards, sure
that she was going to leap up and hit him for asking such an inane question.
'Are you ok?' what kind of an idiot asks that after something like
this?
To his surprise however most of
the tension evaporated as soon as it arrived. Slowly the Second Child stood
up, taking deep breaths as she did so, before finally speaking. The way
she spoke however... It was as if she wasn't even aware that he was standing
there, as if her words were directed to herself rather than to anyone else,
in a tone of voice that was dead to emotion.
"Dirty... Feel so dirty... But I
got him. That's what matters isn't it? That I got him?" she whispered woodenly.
She turned around then and gazed towards Shinji with eyes that looked straight
through him without seeing him. "It doesn't matter that no one helped me...
I didn't need their help. Never need anyone's help... But I was so... I
needed..."
The Second Child began breathing
more rapidly then, and she brought herself under control only after visible
effort. Shinji took another step closer but the girl remained outwardly
oblivious.
"I won... Didn't I? Then why aren't
I happy? I... I deserve to be happy don't I? Please..." Asuka continued,
her voice cracking towards the end as she struggled to hold back tears.
Even if she wasn't listening to him, Shinji knew that he had to say something...
"You... got him Asuka," Shinji replied
weakly. "He's gone. You won."
At first it seemed that she still
hadn't heard him. But then her head shot up sharply and Shinji found himself
staring at her tear streaked face. The girl blinked as her eyes focused
on him, then she turned away again. When she faced Shinji once more it
was as if she had drawn a cracked mask over her features, trying to put
on her normal, confident expression. All she succeeded in doing was lifting
her chin an inch and putting on the shadow of a smile...
"You... think so?" she began quietly.
Then as if realizing that she now had an audience she shook herself and
tried to use a more forceful tone of voice. "Damn right I did! And more
than that - I didn't need you or...or wonder girl, or Kensuke's new friends
to save me!" she crowed - or at least she tried to. It came out more desperate
than confident. "All I needed was myself ... Me, Asuka... I showed them
all... didn't I Shinji?"
Shinji resisted the urge to correct
her. There was no way any of them could have defeated those two Angels
by themselves Shinji shuddered to think about what would have happened
had the Keeper not been there to draw away the second Angel. But despite
her words, Shinji felt Asuka knew that as well. Behind the forced confidence
was an urgent need for reassurance, behind the pride was a girl who
could collapse if not propped up by affirmation. Such insight into others
may be rare to Shinji, but he was wise enough to heed it when it came.
"Yes you did Asuka," the boy said
as he nodded his assent. "You did good today..."
Those two sentences has a visible
effect on his friend. Her eyes brightened, and her posture straightened...
A bit of the falsity vanished from her expression and her banter gained
a more natural tone. "Good?" the redhead asked. "I was great today Shinji!
I'm always great! And don't you forget it Baka-Shinji!"
With that the girl gave her long
red hair a flounce before walking past Shinji without a backward glance.
Before she had moved away completely however, the Third Child heard a soft
voice call his name.
"Shinji?"
There was a pause. Then...
"I'm... sorry..."
And with that she was gone.
----
"This was not in the scenario was
it?"
"Neither mine, nor theirs. We have
entered uncharted territory."
"I don't like the sound of that."
"Neither do I Professor... Neither
do I."
----
...AND HE SHALL REIGN FOREVER
AND EVER...
HALLELLUIAH!
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